Little pieces…
Sometimes things fall apart in pieces and other times it’s a huge collapse! For us this summer marked the all the little pieces falling apart on a domestic adoption we’d been apart of for the last year. We are hitting the one year mark since he first spent an afternoon in our home as a newborn, now that has completely unraveled. Because it was a confidential case, we were unable to post online any of the hundreds of pictures and videos of him from the last year with us. Maybe that’s part of the hard part, unable to truly share “everything”.
The irony is this is not our first child to lose, we lost two little girls separately in Vietnam in 2008. Word came on Tuesday that elements beyond our control dictated an outcome that leaves us heartbroken, for him and us.
As we wrestle to understand all the reasons behind it, and trying to understand God’s hands in all this…..Wednesday (yesterday) we learned that Troy’s mom was rushed to ER in Southern California. She has since been airlifted to another hospital and is suffering from an aortic aneurysm and has a surgical consult this morning. We are of course going down to be with her. (For all of you that know us in “real life” this is a replay of 2008- losing kids in Vietnam, followed by Troy’s dad’s hospitalization and subsequently them moving in with us for 6 weeks.)
Yet at the end of 2008, beginning of 2009 when I didn’t think things could get much worse, Emma was dropped in our laps and life was never the same. This week, in the middle of these storms, Emma continues to give us hope and a reason to celebrate. For the last 5 days we’ve been working on potty training and she’s suddenly “getting it”, doing must of her business in her potty and staying dry all night (11 hours) last night for the first time ever! Life is such a dance of joy and grief, hardship and happiness. I’ll be blogging on and off for the next few days….. hugs- b
